‘Anong gusto mong ipadala ko sayo pag alis ko?'

'Dalaga ka na uli ..'

These are the words that I hear whenever the topic of my husband leaving arises. 

First, no amount of anything can match up to a minute spent with him. Being away from him cannot be made up by little things, no matter how expensive they are.

Second, I will not be a bachelorette, never again. If anything, I will just be a woman without her heart because my heart is with him. Now, is that something to be happy about? 

It's excruciatingly painful just the thought of not being with you, IT KILLS ME. But if it means helping you follow your dream for this family, and somehow it's self-fulfilling for you, I know I can do it. Nothing can make me happier that to see you happy.

Now that you have us -- your reason to fix your life, you can rest assured that I will not take that reason away from you. Let us be your inspiration. We will forever be a family. You now have something to hold on to, something to keep you going, no one can take that away from you.

I know it also hurts you as much as it hurts me, but hey, time flies fast, right? Go, follow your dreams, be someone, be a hero.

I know for this, your kids will always look up to you; you will always be their hero. Soon, we’ll be there with you. We’ll work on it, right?

I will be your light, your strength, your love. ALWAYS.

Philippians 4:13I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

AMAZING GRACE.

There are three things that amaze me— no, four things that I don’t understand: how an eagle glides through the sky, how a snake slithers on a rock, how a ship navigates the ocean, how a man loves a woman.
Proverbs 30:18-19

It really is amazing having to feel the feeling of being loved by a man. A real man. I don’t know how it works but to me, his love is the air that I breathe, the beat of my heart and the smile on my face. His love makes me weak on my knees.It amazes me how a single man can make the love of God come to life. It is a dim reflection of God’s unfailing love. Now I know the reason why God brought us together, it is to reveal that His love is real, alive and unconditional. That even if we made our own mistakes in the past and thought that we are being punished for being bad people, we deserve to be loved like this. That we are not bad people, we are just people who made mistakes due to the unfortunate events of life. AND THAT IS THE TRUTH. So in return, I promise you, my husband …

Likewise, wives, be subject to your own husbands, so that even if some do not obey the word, they may be won without a word by the conduct of their wives, when they see your respectful and pure conduct. Do not let your adorning be external—the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear— but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious. For this is how the holy women who hoped in God used to adorn themselves, by submitting to their own husbands, ...1 Peter 3:1-22

I submit my life to you. As I’ve always been, I will always be beautiful inside, not putting that much effort on my external beauty but to mold my heart to be flawless for you. To teach our kids to be a man of God and to always serve my purpose, to be true to you, faithful, honest and to love you for the rest of my life. No amount of temptation can make me do bad things to hurt you. You are my one and only and I will forever take care of your heart.

Fix you.

Have you ever been in a long term relationship and felt stable so much that it made you fat and didn’t care how you looked? Then one day, that one man whom you thought loved you left you for someone prettier, skinnier and smarter. Have you ever been left behind but never knew how to admit the truth so you make some lame excuses about the break-up and make it sound like nothing’s wrong but in reality, you just can’t admit that you have been cheated on because of (somehow) the way you look.

People around you aren’t blind. They are definitely seeing the difference between you and the new girl. Your friends are just being nice. Who the hell are we kidding? He wouldn’t have left you if you are better in the first place. You are not fooling anyone.

What is it that they have that you don’t? Maybe that beautiful skin, those pretty eyes, or that body (coz let’s be honest, long term relationships, 'the STABILITY' can make a girl fat). What are you to do now? All you have is that big ass of yours and nothing more. Then as you look at their photos, you will realize that you have to at least do something about yourself, to match her beauty and glamour and when that day comes, you will learn to focus on yourself, take care of yourself, and love yourself.

Did you need your heart broken first before you realize that you have to take care of yourself? Why did it cost you heartache before you realize that you are neglecting yourself?

And now, after a long time of making up to yourself and that self-love thing you should have been doing a long time ago, did it heal you from the inside? Do you really think you are beautiful now? Do you think that you are more beautiful than the girl he left you with?

Think again. He left you for a reason, there’s no way you’re welcome in his life anymore. Even if you transform to be the most beautiful woman in the world, who the hell cares? That one person you eant to notice, together with his family and friends, they could not care less.

Fix yourself. Fix your soul. Fix what’s inside. FIT IT FOR YOU.

You can always change how you look but WHO YOU ARE, it’s a different story.

There is more than a girl’s beautiful face. Remember that.

I'm flying away!

Every time I hear you speak

My heart starts to get weak

I can’t wait to finally go and pack

I am leaving no more turning back

No more waiting for you to stop

No more fear, my head won’t pop

No more voices on my head

I can’t wait to move ahead!

Every day I look up the sky

I’ve been wondering ‘how do I?’

Turn my back and leave this place

All your memories, I will erase

Now I can’t believe it’s coming true

I’m finally moving away from you

All I have to do is kneel and pray

Before I completely fly away.

and my music keeps going onmy heart begins to beatand my music keeps going onit makes my life complete

Cater to you.

Cater to You (Male Version)

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Baby I See You Working Hard
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You,
My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You
If I Want It (have It)
When I Ask You (You Provide It)
You Inspire Me To Be Better 

You Challenge Me For The Better
So Sit Back And Let Me Pour Out My Love Letter
Let Me Help You
Take Off Your Shoes
Untie Your Shoestrings
Take Off them earrings
What You Want To Eat Boo?
Let Me Feed You
Let Me Run Your Bathwater
Whatever You Desire, I'll Aspire
If you Want It (have It) say the word and (I’ll try it)
And Whatever I'm Not Fulfilling
no other man is willing
cause I’m going to fulfill you with ma body and spirit
I Promise You
I'll Keep Myself Up
remain the same boy you fell in love with
I’ll keep it tight and I’ll keep my figure right
I’ll keep my hair fixed , keep rocking the hottest outfits
Cause its love you need , to give it is my joy
all I wanna do is cater to you girl

[chorus]
Just let me cater to you cause baby this is your day
do anything for my girl baby you blow me away
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, just let me Cater To You
inspired me from the heart can’t nothing tear us apart
you’re all I want in a girl I’ll put my life in your hands
I Got Your Slippers, Your Dinner, Your Dessert, And So Much More
Anything You Want, just let me Cater To You


Give My Breath, My Strength, My Will To you
That’s the least I can do , let me cater to you
cause your beautiful (your beautiful)
I love the way you are fulfill your every desire (desire)
your wish is my command I wanna cater to my girl [chorus]

To listen to the song, Click HERE!

My husband is everything that this song says. He’s been nothing but loving, supportive and he’s been fulfilling my every need. (: He’s been catering to my every desire and wants, he’s been doing all that he can to serve and love and protect me. All that a woman dreams of in a man is everything that he is.

I'm off for words to use to thank the Lord for giving me the sweetest man in the world. He is truly and definitely a man made in the likeness of God.

I may not tell you how much thankful I am every day nor how much I appreaciate your every effort but rest assured that in my heart, every single thing counts.

Thank You for being a very amazing husband! I love you forever!

Silent screaming

Here I lay dying on my bed

Thinking about the things that are better left unsaid

Feeling all the pain as I try to keep it in

Without you knowing that my love has been dying

What do I do now would you care to tell me, please?

Trying to forget and accept the things with ease.

Should I be mad at you for the pain you caused my heart

Or should I act like nothing's wrong and just wait for time to part

I look at you and see all the hurt and grudge and pain

But I act like nothing's wrong taking all the blame

Is it really me who is acting immaturely?

Or is it the past that keeps haunting us inevitably?

Baby I really wanna go back to the way it was

Where there's no pain, no more grudge and no more hurt to gain.

Rest assured that my love stays with you

No matter how hard life puts us through.

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